Weird weird weird...

I haven't written on here in about 2 yearsish! Crazy. Anyway, I started a new blog which you can find here:

http://munichmaterial.blogspot.com

Anyway...go read it. It will be great. Now I'm going to read some old entries on my livejournal because that should be fun, right?

You know what the best feeling in the world is? Making new friends and feeling like you have known them your entire life. I feel like that has been happening relatively frequently lately; and it's a good thing! For example, Marissa. We are really close, but haven't known each other that long, and in all fairness haven't hung out THAT much over the course of our friendship...However, there is definitely that close, "I totally know and understand you" feeling. Also, my friend, Mia who is just one of the best people I have ever met who gets me completely...We can always talk about anything, and have fun at the same time. And last is my friend Ashley who I met in chem lab...we just click, and we have the same sense of humor. Despite my continuing depression (we're working on a year and a half here!) I know I can always come out of my sadness when I'm around these people. I'm also stoked for break because I will get to see my best friends down in Arvada; we haven't been hanging out nearly enough.

What's new? Nothing much, except I'm moving up to server at my job...Thank GOD I'm almost done with hosting, I hate that shit. Serving is going to suck too, but the fact that I will be making on average $15 to $25 dollars an hour makes up for the dealing with assholes all day part. I'm sooooooo poor. I realized the other day that my combined paychecks (usually around a total of $500 to $550) don't cover all my expenses for the month which is terribly discouraging because I had saved up a grand from July (remember that month where I was working 70 hours a week?...) just to help cushion me now. But I had to tear away at that money, and It's just not a good thing. I finally switched my major to Integrative Physiology which is essentially a good base for med school, and the major itself focuses on the different body systems and how they interrelate...Very cool, but classes are going to be a BITCH so I hope I can do it.

Ok, I'm getting really tired writing this...I was going to write more, but I think it's time for a nap!

So I'm a little bored, I'm just waiting around until I go to Felicia's play tonight. But today and last night were AWESOME. Today is my first day off in about a month and a half. But last night I hung out with Marissa and Nick, we had a really good time, slept till ONE today (I've never slept that late before, which proves I really do need to catch up on sleep) saw my friend Nina, and I'm going to go on a run now. And then, I'm off to Felicia's play and I'm SO excited to see her on stage! :) Anyway, just felt like the time was right for doing this survey which I stole from Jessi who had some crazy conincidences with it! I love and miss you all...I hope I won't be depressed much longer because I'm starting to get fed up with it - thank god for today. It has made me feel so much better!

1. Opening Credits:
Dance of the Sugarplum Fairy - Tchaikovsky
LOL!!! Holy shit, that's funny. If it was actually in a movie, it would remind me of a horror movie!

2. Waking Up:
Losing Grip - Avril Lavigne
Haha...Avril Lavigne in the morning?

3. First Day at School:
Why Not - Hilary Duff
I DO NOT OWN THE HILARY DUFF CD...Let's all be clear. I stole it from Julia's computer, and I don't know why...but now it's on my computer. LOL.

4. Falling in Love:
Isn't it Romantic - Ella Fitzgerald
Haha, this is really the only one that fits so far, but definitely a good one!

5. Fight Song:
Suprise Suprise - The Starting line
I guess it works...but it's more depressing than fight-inducing.

6. Breaking Up:
Attractive Today - Motion City Soundtrack
Well, it sort of works. A little.

7. Prom:
Californication - Red Hot Chili Peppers
I don't think this survey is really working for me!

8. Life's Ok:
Come Fly With Me - Michael Buble
This just reminds me of weddings!

9. Mental Breakdown:
Your Song - Moulin Rouge
LMAO.

10. Driving:
On the Beautiful Blue Danube - Strauss
ROCK ON. This one is perfect!

11. Flashback:
Piano Concerto 2, Allegro - Shostakovich
I guess this one is pretty good! It's very peppy, so it would have to be a good flashback.

12. Getting Back Together:
Trust Me - The Fray
I love it...and I love the Fray.

13. Wedding:
Fibre De Verre - Paris Combo
Interesting...it's a very deep song, and works pretty well.

14. Birth of a Child:
I don't Know what it Is - Rufus Wainwright
Interesting...kind of strange!

15. Death Scene:
One Man Guy - Rufus Wainwright
Also interesting...I guess it could work!

16. Funeral Song:
Bachianias Brasilerias - Villa Lobos
Haha, it's VERY dramatic...but sort of appropriate.

17. End Credits:
That's All - Michael Buble
Well, it's good, but I wouldn't want my end credits to be sad. I want to go out with a bang! Let's try again...
I will Remember You - Sarah McLachlan...We're trying ONE more time:

Ride of the Valkeryies - Wagner...AM i EVIL or something?!

Whatever, I give up. This movie would suck anyway.

Love you all,
Sean

My-oh-my...What has been going on lately? Well nothing really, I moved into my new house with my new roomates Patricia and Julia, and I start class TOMORROW promptly at 8 AM! AHH. So I'm a little bit nervous and freaking out right now, but it's all good. I'm even more nervous when I think that the first class I have tomorrow is Chemistry - which I'm going to blow at, but still determined to get an A. You know what sucks about tomorrow as well? I have classes from 8AM till 6PM. Mondays are going to suck! However, I'm looking forward to meeting some new friends, and seeing some old ones. I hope to god I know someone in Chem, because it would make it about twenty times better. I don't even know why I decided to update...I'm just looking to kill some time before I get sleepy and go to bed. Depression-wise, things have definitely been rough lately. I just feel like I dig myself into a hole that gets deeper every day, but I got some advice from a strange place the other day, which I shall attempt to explain.

So for those of you who know me, you also know that I don't talk about my problems ever, and I just bottle them up. It could be some sort of fear of bad communication, but I think it's more of a subtle fear of social weakness. The only person I have honest conversations with is Felicia, which I'm so thankful for. But anyway, my co-worker reminded me that life is all about your point of view - an interesting and simple insight which has caused me to reevaluate things from a (or several) different and new viewpoints. I've been making active decisions not to feel sorry for myself, and to just get over shit. I'm not sure if it's the best idea in the long run, but honestly it seems to pair well with my phobias, and if it gets me out of depression, I will honestly do anything. Ok, this was longer than I though it would be...and a little more theraputic than usual. Maybe I will write more?

Love,
Sean

I'm going to do a quick little entry for you all, because I've been such a slacker and haven't updated lately.

- At lunch today I made a delicious avocado and cream cheese sandwich. YUM.

- I'm starting a 60 hour work week tomorrow to make up for my total waste of a summer.

- I'll be working at Yard House (restaurant with a TON of beer *130 beers on tap* where I just got a job as a host) about 20 hours a week, but probably more like 25.

- I don't like hosting. I want to be a server!

- My second job is -GASP- at Jamba Juice, where I will work for a MONTH ONLY (thank god) just to help pay my bills! Get this, 6 AM to 2 PM every weekday. I'm going to die. Especially since I wont get out of Yard House until 11 some nights. My manager was really happy to have me back though, it made me feel very special! And he gave me a 25 cent increase from where I left off in January...I'm making 8 bucks an hour there, and 8.50 at Yard house, so not too shabby.

- I just painted my room at the house where I will be living starting August 28th, and it looks horrible - It's an adobe-ish color...anyone have any color suggestions? All I know is I want an earth tone that doesn't look like shit. This color looks like you've stepped into a mexican restaurant.

- My new mantra to get me through the month, and the school year: "Shoulder the Burden" because I need to stop whining about all the crap I have to do and JUST DO IT. Nike was right, bitches.

- I'm TERRIFIED to start Chemistry. I have nightmares about it. Seriously.

- I want a boyfriend really bad lately, usually I don't care, but DAMN. I really want one!

- We made yummy cocktails last night. (We being Felicia, Melissa, and I.)

- I want to move to Italy for a year.

- Felicia, Melissa, Michael, and I found the Real World house in Denver! It's really cool, and there is a big yellow jeep in the entryway...it's kind of turned on it's side, so I'm assuming it's some sort of decoration.

- I tried pot on the 4th of July...And I didn't feel any different, I was just really bitchy, and ate for 2 hours straight. Wasn't super fun, and I don't think I'll do it again...plus my guilty conscience kicked in.

- I have been walking around the house with just boxers all day...strange. I'm so NAKED.

- Last night I was FORCED to dress up as a woman by Felicia and Melissa...I seriously looked like Princess Diana going to the Kentucky Derby. It was one of the most disturbing things I've ever seen.

- THINGS I MUST DO:
1.) Get oil change for car.
2.) Buy new paint.
3.) Change my schedule.
4.) Call people I have been meaning to call all summer.
5.) Practice for the wedding on Saturday - EEK!!!
6.) Lots more.
7.) Paint cabinets.
8.) Stain the fence.
9.) Even more.
10.) Practice cello more, and call Anne for my next lesson.
11.) Join a community Orchestra.
12.) Maintain social life.

Ok, I must run! Ta for now!

I'm fucking pissed off. Months of depression has suddenly escalated into this strange anger, so, WATCH THE FUCK OUT CAUSE I'M IN A BAD MOOD. (A rare occurence that only happens a few times a year.)

I could make a list of reasons why I'm pissed off, but I'm going to use this anger constructively and run 8 miles, (which I've been doing every day, bitches!) and do other things I've been meaning to do, but haven't got my lazy ass around to doing them.

I'll give a list later of reasons why I'm pissed, if I feel like it.

And don't mistake this for a bad attitude...I'm just mad at myself, mad at others, and FUCKING PISSED AT LIFE. AHHHH!!!!

Well, I have a survey for you that I started quite some time ago and never finished, and also some pictures from my recent trip to Vancouver!

I actually just got back last Sunday, and it was a decent vacation, but I was stuck with my parents the whole trip from Reno, to San Fran, and up the coast to Seattle which blew most of the time. It was absolutley gorgeous along the coast though...Dear lord. And I loved San Fran; what a great and beautiful city! Thank god I had plans with Melissa to take a bus from Seattle to Vancouver though, it was an absolute blast. Of course the best part was that the drinking age there is 19, but Vancouver is an awesome place for other things too, so we got the best of both worlds. But, it was kind of bad that we went though, because now I cannot wait until I turn 21...bars and clubs are just so much fun! It's so neat to be able to try all these fun drinks and stuff. But I've got 2 years to go! We are, of course, going to Vancouver again next summer though, and we will have to stay more than 2 days, and bring tons more people with us.

Not much has been going on besides that...I have lost about 12ish pounds ever since getting out of school for some reason. It's very strange. But I guess not eating crappy dorm food all the time will cause you to lose weight! And it's so great to be able to see some of my High School friends who are gone during the school year. Yesterday we learned about "chodes" which I guess are penises wider than they are long. Hmmm...I couldn't stop laughing about that. And I also can't believe we didn't know the word! We were hanging out with this really great 14 year old, Ryan, and he told us the word is pretty common...we really are getting old! I still have a lot of people to catch up with, however, and I really need to get on that. I'm still unemployed (how lame am I?); and have an interview at Nordstrom on Tuesday, so wish me luck! (I still can't picture myself in a yuppy department store, but I'm sure it will be fun.) And Whitney works there too, so that will be really fun to work with hear again...she's basically my childhood best friend, and we've both worked at Flatiron Document Support together on and off since we were 16. Anyway, we are about to have some Sundaes for dessert, so I must go. I hope everyone is doing amazing, and I love you all.

Love,
Sean

PS - I love my cello. I just thought I would throw that out there.
PPS - Sorry, most of these pictures are just us with booze, but that's the point, right?

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God, yesterday sure was weird...

So I had to get an expidited passport, and drive all the way to fucking Aurora (AKA the shithole of the Denver Metro Area) to this passport place, where I dropped $157.00 to get the fucking passport to be in Vancouver for 2 FUCKING DAYS hahaha....Oh well, it's going to be worth it! AND the worst part; they took my old passport which contained the cutest little middle school blackmail picture ever. Damn them.

After that I drove home which took about 45 minutes...And I loathe driving, especially in the cities, but I got home, and got a call from Felicia who needed a ride to the hospital because her mom wasn't feeling well. Surprisingly we had tons of fun (well I guess it wasn't so surprising because Felicia and I can have fun anywhere) and ended up spending the whole day together which was really cool. It also got me away from my parents who have become completely evil since I've returned home -AHH BREAK! I just got all my grades in...I'm a little dissapointed, but they're not too bad.

My GPA was a 3.2...so my cumulative is now a 3.084 (I love how precise they are...)
Art History - A
General Biology 2 - B
General Biology Lab 2 - B
Intro to Integrative Physiology - B+
Sociology - B (Damnit I should have got an A! The class was SO EASY...*rips hair out*)
Writing and Rhetoric - B

Damn, I'm SUCH a fucking "B" student...I guess it could be worse, right?

Eh, I'll tell you about my parents later...but in a nutshell they made me change my major from International Affairs BACK to pre-nursing, and it was very much against my will. Oh well, I just have to remember to breathe, and one of these days they will realize I'm a responsible adult and back the fuck off!

Have a lovely day everyone!
-Sean

Wow...it has been forever since I last updated. And I have literally been meaning to do it for probably the past two months.

But how is everyone? I am doing FABULOUSLY because I am out of school. Finally. I actually just moved out of the dorms and finished my icky finals this evening, which got me thinking about what a strange year it was. First semester I was a wreck, and I just missed everyone. Second semester I finally settled or something...It was very a very unconscious, uncontrolled thing. I suppose you want to hear all about the exciting things that happened to me? Well, I'm just not sure there are that many really. I've realized I will forever be a "B" student...I CANNOT get an A no matter how hard I try! (With the exception of Art History which loves me.) I finally decided nursing wasn't going to happen right now due to the horrible prerequisite requirements, so I switched my major to International Affairs. It was a tremendously spontaneous dicision, but the best decisions I've made are spontaneous. I will be taking Italian, and if all goes according to plan, I will be in ITALY my Junior year, and I'd really like to stay for a full year. (I hope my French background helps a little bit!) My grand plan is to get a background in International Affairs and then go back to school to get some sort of environmental/ecological degree. Then, I would like to apply that to some sort of ecological solutions job that deals with human rights, politics, and the environment. Sound cool? Because it's what I'm really interested in, so I hope it works out!

Back to the "B" thing...I just got an 82% on my last Bio test, and my Bio final, which just made me really sad for some reason because I totally thought I rocked them today. But whatever, I truly do know this stuff, I just can't seem to academically succeed with it or something. Today I also had my Integrative Phyisology final which was HORRIBLE (mainly because my teacher is a dumbass who cannot teach to save his life but still writes hard tests.) So basically, I think my brain is fried. On Monday I also had a 12 page paper for writing, had a moderately difficult Sociology final, and had a decent Art History final. So THANK GOD SUMMER IS HERE!

Oh! This summer my family actually invited me to go on our vacation! We will be flying to Reno to visit my grandpa, and then driving to California to visit my uncle, up the coast, and into Seattle which is where my other uncle, two aunts, and a cousin live. Melissa is at UW, so I will get to see her, and the best part about the whole trip is that we will be going to Vancouver together! No adults, just two 19 year old hotties and the Vancouver bars. We are stoked. AND we will be taking a train from Seattle! How cool is that?!

Ok, I'm going to go to bed, I'm exhausted from this long day. But I will try to update more!
-Sean

Okay...here's how it works. You name a movie, and the last word has to be VAGINA. No repeats, no one word movies, and you can't say "The VAGINA." I'll start, you follow. Drink while ya think...

Jimmy - Run Lola VAGINA
rupa - grumpy old vagina
Mikey - Eternal Sunlight of the Spotless Vagina
Amanda -The 40 year old VAGINA
Abby - I know what you did last Vagina
Misty- The hitch hikers guide to the Vagina
Lee - Revenge of the Vagina
Rob - How to Lose a Guy in 10 Vaginas
Kenny - Jurassic Vagina
Tim - Forrest Vagina
Rich - Reservoir Vaginas
Courtney (Doe-eyes) - Twenty thousand leagues under the vagina!
Kristin - The Color of Vagina
Stuart - Teenage Mutant Ninja Vaginas!
Danie - Revenge of the Vanginas
Jesse - Fried Green Vagina ... lmao
Rachelle - The truth about cats & vaginas
Xavier- The Lord of the Vagina
Alan- My Big Fat Greek Vagina
LYNETTE~~~~INTERVIEW WITH A VAGINA
DRO_B9 ~ will wonka and chocolate VAGINA
Dom - Requiem for a Vagina
Em- Memoirs of a Vagina
Nicole: Singing in the Vagina
Adrianas- Jurrasic Vagina
Gabriel - V is for VAGINA
Sean - Meet the Parents Vagina

Two words.

SCREW COLLEGE.

I just want to curl up in front of a fireplace in my log cabin that I am TRAPPED in because it is so snowy outside that I can't even open the door with a bunch of good friends, good books, good movies, good food, maybe a little bit of wine, and some NICE FUCKING HOT COCOA. What I DON'T WANT is to write papers and study for petty intro classes...AHHHH!!!!11!!!!1!!

Yeah, I'm not happy right now.

-Sean

PS - Dear Colorado,
It's February...why is it 70 degrees outside?

This message comes in from Bobby, who is 34, and lives in New York:

Subject: very very cute!
Body: i would PAY for some of that

Thank you Bobby...but no.

HAHAHAHA...I'm still laughing about this, and I think I saw it like 5 minutes ago!

Have a great day loves,
-Sean

Ok, I just wanted to do a quick update, and tell everyone that life is going GOOD. FINALLY!

I fucking QUIT Jamba Juice...Finally. That place was seriously killing me! I can't even begin to tell you how much it brought me down emotionally. I found another job (at least I think) at the School of Journalism and Mass Communication making 8.50 an hour as a general office bitch. I'm pretty excited about it. However, it's a work study position, and I don't have a work study award. So that has to go through, and it takes about 3 weeks. But it sounds like my boss still wants to hire me and have me for the job, so I think everything should work out.

Also, my roomates and I have been househunting! It's SO much fun...I love it. And we found an amazing house in Louisville, which is quite suburban, but very nice and perfect for us. We've looked at some other houses that were shitter and more expensive, so it sounds like this is our first choice right now.

And I finally spoke with my nursing advisor today and was practically enlightened! I have SO many options right now, and I really need to make a decision on what I want to do. The basic decisions I have to make are if I want to complete a major and then apply to nursing school, or if I want to do 3 years here at CU Boulder, and then transfer to CU Health Sciences. If I do four years here, I can major in WHATEVER THE FUCK I WANT. I'm SO excited....I feel like the world is open to me right now!

Ok, gotta go! But I'll keep yall updated!

Love,
Sean

Kiki, what the heck was the "nudge" thing?...Hahaha, Ok, I'll update!

Well, I'm back in the dorms, and they are amazingly fun. *coughs* Actually they haven't been too bad yet considering that none of my friends are back yet, and they should all be getting here today. It finally snowed last night! But of course it's still quite warm, so all of it will melt before 3 or 4ish I'm sure.

Oh and happy birthday to bitter_female my fellow Bridget Jones lover! I hope you are having a most excellent day, and don't forget to put last night's panties in the laundry basket!

My goodness, I feel like there is so much to fill all of you in on, but at the same time I haven't really done anything extraordinary lately. Break ends tomorrow, which is really unfortunate, but hopefully my schedule and classes will be more pleasing this semester. Just to fill everyone in, I got a 2.9 gpa last semester...Oops! Definitely not my best, and I'm hoping to kick ass this semester. I ended up with an A- in Art History, a B in French and Comparative Politics (I totally could have pulled an A in Comparative Politics had I not FUCKED up the final, and been an hour and a half late!!! Granted though, I don't think I did that badly.) I got a C+ in Biology, and a C- in my bio lab. I'm very disappointed in my bio grades, I think I could have done much better.

Anyway, musically the break was successful. I'm back to my old "level" of playing ability, and it was so good to go back to lessons with Anne. I missed her a ton. I've learned the entire Saint Saens cello concerto, learned another movement in the Bach Suites, and perfected a Vivaldi piece. I was also working on the Swan, but it's fairly easy. As far as Orchestra auditions go, I'm terrified. I still don't know what I will be auditioned over...My pieces, while pretty good, are NOT audition ready. I have a feeling I won't be auditioned over prepared pieces...It'll probably be an excerpt from a piece that we are playing in orchestra. I'll be sure to tell yall how that goes...

As far as driving goes, the break was unsuccessful. I got pulled over for running a red light. (SHIT!)It was in an area I don't know super well, and it was one of those times you just decide to gun it because you are going too fast to slam on your brakes. But I was nice to the cop, so I got a reduction, and it was something along the lines of "ignoring traffic signals" which I guess is not as bad as a red light violation. You will NOT believe how many points the ticket was for though...4!!! I figured a red light would be for 2ish tickets. But by mailing in the money in 20 days, I get a 2 point reduction.

I bought the funniest Harry Potter Valentines with Felicia the other day. I just can't even tell you how hilarious they are! All of the people on them look so pissed, but they say things like, "We have a magical friendship", and "Hope you're a Champion on Valentine's Day!" But the looks on all the character's faces just make it hilarious! Oh lord, if anyone wants some Valentine love from me, send me your address, and we'll have a Valentine's Day exchange thingie.

I was so bored when I came back yesterday that I reorganized every single one of my drawers, and my closet too...I couldn't believe it took so long in a room that is so small. Then I hung out with some people I know from upstairs, and we watched the 40 year old virgin. I really don't know about that movie. Some parts are pretty funny, but It's just SO long, and not funny enough to make me want to see it ever again.

However, I was really impressed with Memoirs of a Geisha. I read that book last year, and It is amazing. I was really happy that the movie followed the book so well. And even thought the main character, Sayuri, is not Japanese, it's not that huge of a deal. I would recommend reading the book before seeing the movie though...it will make everything MUCH clearer. I would have been totally lost if I hadn't read the book.

Jesus! I feel like there is so much to talk about, but I just keep bringing up weird stuff. Depression was getting better over break, then I went a little downhill again. I'm really optimistic about it getting better for a few reasons though. I have made goals to help me battle it, and I plan on really strengthening my current friendships, making new ones, finding a new and much better job, and I want to start running a lot more; at least 6 days a week! I'm not just going to let depression eat me up...I did for awhile, but that is over! And next year is going to be so much fun! I'll have an apartment with my good friends, and we will have a blast all the time. I don't see any of us getting in petty fights over shit, we are all really easygoing.

ALSO - Very important! The year of the Cock is ALMOST over. AKA the year that is really hard for Rabbits. I totally wouldn't believe in this Chinese Astrology stuff, if it wasn't coming true in every way. January 29th baby! It's almost here!

Ok wish me luck in classes this week (especially in orchestra!) and I will see you all very soon. I promise to update sooner!

Love,
Sean

Oh god...2005 is ALMOST over!!!

It was such an up and down year. It was horrible to leave High School, but I got a ton of new experiences, and I have learned more than I ever have before during this year. All in all, it was a good one, I think!

Anyway, off to some parties dressed up as an 80's popstar with Melissa...I'll see you all on the flipside!

Love,
Sean

In the year 2006 I resolve to: Dance randomly at work. Get your resolution here

It's really too bad I do this EVERY DAY at work. Seriously, all I do is dance when I'm at work. I hardly make smoothies...I just dance! Hahaha...

Hope everyone is enjoying their Thursday!
-Sean

PS - I have officially learned the entire first movement of the Saint-Saens Cello concerto! Now I have to practice it a lot...I need to memorize it still!

OMG!!!1!!

MeRry ChRIStmAs!!!

:D

Liek, woah! I hope you are liek having a good Christmas!!!!

Love,
Sean

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Now I have to go to work for 9 hours...Happy Christmas Eve everyone!

WOW.

Break is going SO wonderfully...

I feel SO happy! Like my old self. Just like my old self...my old self that was happy, had the best friends in the world, and was always enjoying himself.

I have my cello, and finally have time to play it! I get to see my Cello Teacher, Anne, which fucking rocks. She is such an awesome woman. And I'm also around my greatest friends in the world, my friends from High School. AHH I'm so happy! I haven't felt like this since I left for school! Can you believe it? I saw my closest new CU friend, Marissa, as well, which was awesome. I feel like she is one of the few people I've met at CU that I have a true connection with. Like I said before, I haven't found my "niche" yet. I also saw one of my other semi-new CU friends, Amy, which was really nice too. I knew her before I left for school, but I didn't really start hanging out with her until we went up to school, but she's awesome too.

Not as important as friends, but very enjoyable is the fact that although I'm busy seeing people, and making cheesecakes (because I'm super poor this Christmas); I feel relaxed! I haven't had to work a TON which is great too...and AAHHH! I'm so fucking happy! It feels so good to say that! You guys, I'm FUCKING BACK!

Love,
Sean

PS - God, I am having the hardest time picking up some of my old songs on cello! I haven't totally lost my cello skills, and they've definitely come back from where they were since I left for break, but MAN! It is going to take a lot of work for me to pull of my audtion pieces, especially the Saint Saens cello Concerto! I've already played the Vivaldi, and the other Saint Saens. And the Bach is pretty easy as well, it won't take long to have that perfected. BUT THEY HAVE TO BE PERFECT OR I WILL BE SAD!